gal on the run

They say if the grass looks greener on the other side, maybe you should take better care of your grass. This is me watering my grass.

he’s just not that into me

i’ve been all about this book, this idea, ever since i read it. and, generally, it’s worked out for me. i know what it feels like when someone’s into me. he’d call when he said he was going to. he would follow through. he would make it clear that he was into me. i wouldn’t have to make excuses to myself for him or find ways to convince myself that he really does like me, he’s just busy. he really does like me, he’s just still getting over his ex.

because generally, guys are simple. if they’re into you, they’ll make it known. they’ll take action to try to make something happen. they won’t let other s get in the way.

so - i need to follow through on this idea. i’ve been talking to this guy. ridiculously cute. no, hot. and funny. and kind. he watches the office and gets the references. he takes care of his roomie’s dog. he pays for stuff. he tells good stories. he makes me laugh. he even said “i like u.” well - he said “i like u … but i don’t want to get into anything serious right now. i’m not really looking for a gf gf. i’m not ready for a relationship right now, nor do i want one. there’s so much i wanna do still. i feel like i need to just be free for awhile.” — that probably means he’s just not that into me.

i asked him “do you think it wouldn’t be right between us?” and he said the whole “it’s not you, it’s me” thing. but, whatever. if he says he doesn’t want a relationship, that means he doesn’t want a relationship with me. maybe he does like me a little bit, but not enough. not in the way that i want someone to be into me. not in the way that i am into him. and … that’s not enough for me.